CK\ Mogioc
Xccn 0
Ymur \tmry / Rucstimos
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CK\ Mogioc
Xccn 0 Uidcm Omtcs
Xccn 0 | Ymur \tmry / Rucstimos
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Xccn 0 |
Ymur \tmry / Rucstimos
‗I dmo’t ginc boy tfioh fcrc bt bgg,‛ sbid Ermdm, ‗stcp mr stmoc, `rcbtf mr `moc. Cbrtf, bir bod wbtcr bgg scck bllurscd. @ut sm mur pbtf is gbid.‛ ‗Ycs, tfbt’s sm,‛ sbid \bk. ‗Bod wc sfmugdo’t `c fcrc bt bgg, i wc’d nomwo kmrc b`mut it `cmrc wc stbrtcd. @ut I suppmsc it’s meco tfbt wby. Tc `rbvc tfiohs io tfc mgd tbgcs bod smohs, Kr. Ermdm: bdvcoturcs, bs I uscd tm lbgg tfck. I uscd tm tfion tfbt tfcy wcrc tfiohs tfc wmodcrug mgn m tfc stmrics wcot mut bod gmmncd mr, `clbusc tfcy wbotcd tfck, `clbusc tfcy wcrc cxlitioh bod gic wbs b `it dugg, b niod m spmrt, bs ymu kihft sby. @ut tfbt’s omt tfc wby m it witf w itf tfc tbgcs tfbt rcbggy kbttcrcd, mr tfc mocs tfbt stby io tfc kiod. Emgn scck tm fbvc `cco just gbodcd io tfck, usubggy—tfcir pbtfs wcrc gbid mut tfbt wby, wby, bs ymu put it. @ut I cxpclt tfcy fbd gmts m lfbolcs, ginc us, m turoioh `bln, mogy tfcy dido’t. Bod i tfcy fbd, wc sfmugdo’t nomw, `clbusc tfcy’d fbvc `cco mrhmttco. Xc fcbr b`mut tfmsc tfbt just wcot mo— bod omt bgg tm b hmmd cod, kiod ymu> bt gcbst omt tm wfbt mgn iosidc b stmry bod omt mutsidc it lbgg it b hmmd cod. Ymu nomw, lmkioh fmkc, bod flodioh tfiohs bgg rihft, tfmuhf omt quitc tfc sbkc—ginc mgd Kr. @ig`m. @ig`m. @ut tfmsc brco’t bgwbys tfc `cst tbgcs tm fcbr, tfmuhf tfcy kby `c tfc `cst tbgcs tm hct gbodcd io! I wmodcr wfbt smrt m tbgc wc’vc wc’vc bggco iotm=‛ ‗I wmodcr,‛ sbid Ermdm, ‗`ut I dmo’t nomw. Bod tfbt’s tfc wby m b rcbg tbgc. bnc boy moc pbrt tfbt ymu’rc mod m. Ymu kby nomw, mr hucss, wfbt niod m tbgc it is, fbppy-codioh mr sbd-codioh, `ut tfc pcmpgc io it dmo’t dmo’t nomw. Bod ymu dmo’t dmo’t wbot tfck tm.‛ ‛ Piohs —J.P.P.mgnico , —J.P.P.mgnico , Tc Gmrd m tfc Piohs
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o J.P.P. mgnico’s Gmrd m tfc Piohs, Ermdm bod \bk flod tfckscgvcs io tfc t fc kiddgc m bo iolrcdi`gc tbgc, bo bdvcoturc tfbt tfcy kust scc tfrmuhf tm lmkpgctimo, omt nomwioh ‗wfbt smrt m tbgc‛ it wigg `c io tfc cod. 2 Bt tfis pmiot io ymur gic, ocitfcr ymu omr ymur spmusc fbvc boy idcb wfbt smrt m stmry ymu fbvc gbodcd io. Tc stmry is b`mut tm uomgd, `ut just bs Ermdm bod \bk bhrccd tm jmio tfc qucst, ymu kust lmkkit tm kbnc tfc trip tmwbrd rclmvcry, rclmvcry, dcspitc dcspitc tfc m`stblgcs bod risns tfbt gby bfcbd. Pckck`cr, ymu bod ymur spmusc fbvc sihocd b lmotrblt bs bo iodilbtimo m ymur lmkkitkcot tm tfis prmlcss. I ymu fbvc omt yct sihocd tfis lmotrblt, `mtf m ymu sfmugd dm sm iodividubggy bod tfco t fco rcbd tfrmuhf tfc tcrks tmhctfcr. tmhctfcr. Bs ymu prmlccd tfrmuhf Xccn Xccn 0, rckck`crioh tfcsc cihft tcrks wigg `c lrulibg tm nccp ymu hmioh. Nccp tfc lmotrblt cgckcots sblrcd, `clbusc Xccn 0 is bltubggy vcry dilugt. Ymu wigg dislmvcr
scvcrbg wccns io tfis t fis lmursc brc fbrdcr tfbo mtfcrs, sm I’k hivioh ymu b wbroioh `cmrcfbod: Xccn 0, Xccn 5, Xccn 6, bod Xccn 21 brc tfc kmst ckmtimobggy tryioh m tfc lmursc. Durioh tfmsc wccns, wfctfcr ymu brc wbtlfioh b vidcm, pbrtilipbtioh mogioc, mr iotcrbltioh witf ymur spmusc, ymu wigg flod tfbt wc sccn tm fcgp `mtf m ymu dccpco ymur uodcrstbodioh m tfc mtfcr bod tfbt wc dcsirc tm colmurbhc cvcrymoc tm `c rcbg witf cblf mtfcr. I fmpc ymu fbd b lfbolc tm wbtlf smkc m tfc t fc kcotmr stmrics mogioc. @clbusc tfis hrmup kcctioh is b`mut ymu `cioh b`gc tm tcgg ymur stmry, gistcoioh tm tfc kcotmr lmupgcs sfmugd hivc ymu smkc iosihft iotm tfc t fc prmlcss. Emr smkc m ymu, tfis kby `c tfc flrst tikc ymu’vc rcbggy tricd tm tcgg tfc stmry stmr y. Ymu’gg omtilc tfc kcotmr lmupgc wbs omt quitc bs ckmtimobg, prm`b`gy `clbusc tfcy’vc `cco tfcrc, dmoc tfbt, bod brc `cymod tfc twm-ycbr kbrn. Omw tfbt ymu’vc ymu’vc cxpcricolcd tfc fmpc m tfc kcotmr lmupgc wfm kbdc it tfrmuhf tfcir mwo stmry, wc wigg prcpbrc ymu tm tcgg ymur stmry, bod tfco tm bsn bod boswcr qucstimos qucstimos tmhctfcr io b pmsitivc, rbtfcr tfbo dcstrultivc, wby. wby. Pckck`cr, Pckck`cr, bgtfmuhf kulf m tfis wccn’s wccn’s kbtcribg is dircltcd tm tfc t fc spmusc wfm wbs uobitfug, tfis prmlcss is b jmurocy mr tfc twm m ymu tm t bnc tmhctfcr. tmhctfcr. Io tfc tcggioh m tfc stmry bod tfc bsnioh m qucstimos, sccn tm kbiotbio ymur iotcot iotcot bod wiggiohocss tm wmrn tmhctfcr.
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Xccn 0 Hmbgs Tis wccn `chios smkc m tfc lrulibg wmrn m ymur jmurocy—rcvcbgioh tfc stmry m wfbt fbs fbppcocd io tfc kbrribhc `ctrbybg. Ymu Ymu wigg `mtf ` mtf lmkc iotm tfis cxcrlisc witf dicrcot ckmtimos bod cxpcltbtimos. Trmuhf tfis wccn’s cfimrts, ymu wigg gcbro tm: •
Bpprclibtc Bpprclibtc tfc oclcssity mr tcggioh bod fcbrioh tfc stmry stmry m m iofldcgity bs it mllurrcd io ymur kbrribhc
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Pclmhoizc Pclmho izc ymur mwo occds bod ymur kbtc’s occds io tfc stmry-tcggioh stmry- tcggioh prmlcss
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Sodcrstbod wfy ymur kbtc occds tm bsn qucstimos bod fmw `cst tm boswcr tfck
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Cxpgmrc tfc rmgc m ckmtimos io tfc stmry-tcggioh prmlcss
\ccnioh Hrmuod Zcrm @cmrc ymu lbo `chio tm rc`uigd ymur kbrribhc, ymu flrst fbvc tm hct dmwo tm hrmuod zcrm. I rckck`cr wbtlfioh witf fmrrmr tfc mmtbhc m tfc bttblns mo tfc Xmrgd rbdc Lcotcr bod tfc Qcotbhmo mo 9/22. Tbt kmroioh, I wbgncd iotm tfc wbitioh rmmk io mur mlc bod wbtlfcd tfc pgbocs ffy iotm tfc tmwcrs bod tfc flrc rmbr fihf b`mvc tfc cbrtf. Omoc m ky lgicots sfmwcd up tfbt dby `clbusc cvcry`mdy wbs hgucd tm tfc lgmscst tcgcvisimo bod prbyioh. Sgtikbtcgy, Sgtikbtcgy, tfc twio t wio tmwcrs cgg, disiotchrbtioh tm tfc hrmuod io b fuhc lgmud m dust bod dc`ris. Xfco ymu scc sulf ru``gc rmk `uigdiohs t fbt gbrhc, ymu kihft tfion, ‗Xfbt io tfc wmrgd= Fmw lbo tfcy cvco `chio tm lgcbo tfbt kcss up=‛ @ut it wbs cvco wmrsc tfbo tfbt. Tcy wcrc brbid, yct stigg fmpcug, tfcrc kihft `c pcmpgc stigg bgivc io tfbt fuhc pigc m ru``gc. Fuodrcds m rcsluc wmrncrs bod vmguotccrs gitcrbggy rckmvcd tfbt ru``gc moc fbodug bt b tikc, sieioh tfrmuhf it, tr yioh tm flod boymoc wfm kihft fbvc survivcd. \ikigbrgy, \ikigbrgy, io tfc bfibir rclmvcry prmlcss, tfc flrst stcp is tm smrt tfrmuhf t frmuhf tfc ru``gc. Ymu’vc hmt tm hct dmwo tm hrmuod zcrm, `clbusc uotig ymu cstb`gisf bgg tfc tfc trutf—wfbt is rcbggy tfcrc—it is ocxt tm ikpmssi`gc tm `chio tm rc`uigd. cggioh cggioh bod fcbrioh tfc stmry, stmry, bsnioh bod boswcrioh tfc qucstimos—tfcsc wigg fcgp `mtf m ymu pusf bwby tfc ru``gc bod sie tfrmuhf bgg tfc piclcs sm ymu lbo rcblf hrmuod zcrm bod stbrt tm `uigd bhbio.
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CK\ Mogioc
0.2 Xfbt lmoocltimo dm ymu kbnc witf tfc ‗Hrmuod Zcrm‛ ikbhcry ermk tfc
bttblns mo 9/22 bod ymur mwo situbtimo `chiooioh tfis CK\
Mogioc
lmursc=
0.0 Xfbt is tfc kmst dilugt ckmtimo mr m`stblgc m`stb lgc ymu eblc bs ymu `chio tm
smrt tfrmuhf bgg tfc ru``gc me ymur rcgbtimosfip tm hct tm its hrmuod zcrm=
0.< Xfy dm ymu `cgicvc tfis is ymur kmst dilugt ckmtimo mr m`stblgc=
Jihsbw Quzzgcs io tfc Dbrn I dislmvcrcd io ky mwo mwo kbrribhc tfbt bs gmoh bs I fid wfm I wbs bod fid wfbt I fbd dmoc rmk ky kbtc, sfc lmugd ocvcr rcbggy nomw kc. Io blt, I gcbrocd tfbt it wbs ikpmssi`gc tm rcbggy `c gmvcd uolmoditimobggy bs gmoh bs I mogy lmoditimobggy gct ky wic nomw kc. Molc I `chbo tm tcgg fcr ky stmry, stmry, tm rcvcbg cvcrytfioh tm fcr bod gct fcr nomw bgg, sfc tmgd kc, ‗I uscd tm tfion ymu wcrc smkcwfbt sfbggmw, sfbggmw, bod omw I rcbgizc I mogy nocw b`mut 41 pcrlcot m wfm ymu rcbggy wcrc. I’k omt quitc surc wfbt tm dm witf tfc mtfcr 51 pcrlcot.‛ pcrlcot.‛ Tbt’s moc prm`gck tfbt iofldcgity lbuscs—wfco ymu tcgg ymur stmry, ymur spmusc rcbgizcs ymu brco’t wfm fc mr sfc `cgicvcd ymu wcrc. Yct bt tfc sbkc tikc, lrbzy bs it smuods, ky wiggiohocss tm sfbrc cvcrytfioh witf fcr, tm rcvcbg it bgg, bod tm quit tryioh Xccn 0 | Ymur \tmry / Rucstimos
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tm kboipugbtc fcr `y lmotrmggioh tfc iomrkbtimo bltubggy `chbo tm lrcbtc b scosc m sbcty mr ky kbtc. Molc I gct hm m lmotrmg, sfc ikkcdibtcgy `chbo tm rclmhoizc tfc rcspclt I fbd mr fcr. fcr. \fc nocw I wmugd gct fcr kbnc tfc ugtikbtc dclisimo, bod tfbt wbs ikpmrtbot. \fc rcbgizcd I wbs trustioh fcr witf tfc iomrkbtimo. \fc lmugd scosc ky trust bs I kmvcd tmwbrd fcr. fcr. Kboy lmupgcs `chiooioh tfis rclmvcry prmlcss wbot tm nomw fmw tfcy wigg cvcr trust bhbio. Pc`uigdioh trust witf tfc t fc spmusc ymu furt rcquircs flrst tfbt ymu trust fik mr fcr witf w itf ymur stmry. Fcrc’s b visubg iggustrbtimo m tfc ikpmrtbolc m tcggioh ymur stmry. Ky bkigy rcbggy, rcbggy, rcbggy gmvcs jihsbw puzzgcs. m kc, `ih jihsbw puzzgcs brc stupid. Ginc ky hrbodnids, I ginc rcbggy skbgg jihsbw puzzgcs—tfc 21-piclc niod. Ky bkigy gincs tm wmrn tfc mocs witf 0,111 piclcs. Moc sukkcr tfcy dislmvcrcd b rcbggy iotcrcstioh jihsbw puzzgc, b 0,111-piclc puzzgc witf 21 cxtrb piclcs—mo piclcs—mo purpmsc. Tcy wcrc bgg cxlitcd b`mut tfc blt tfbt tfcrc wcrc 21 cxtrb piclcs. I, mo tfc t fc mtfcr fbod, tfmuhft, Xfbt typc m iosboc, dcvimus, kbsmlfistil sbdist wmugd bltubggy lrcbtc tfbt= Cvcotubggy I hmt rcbggy rustrbtcd bod dclgbrcd tm ky bkigy, ‗I’k mut m fcrc. Tis is just pgbio stupid. stupid.‛ I just lmugdo’t lmugdo’t scc tfc pmiot pmiot m omt nomwioh wfctfcr mr omt tfc puzzgc piclc I fcgd io ky flohcrs `cgmohcd io tfc puzzgc. Yct bs I wbtlfcd tfck bt wmrn, I lmugdo’t fcgp `ut wmodcr bt tfc strbohc jmy tfcy fbd sikpgy `clbusc, bs tfcy sbid, ‗It’s b lfbggcohc.‛ Tco I fbd b ffbsf m `riggibolc. Xfbt i I turocd mut tfc gihfts= I tfcy wbotcd b lfbggcohc, tfco I’d hivc tfck b rcbg ruo mr tfcir kmocy. Lmugd tfcy wmrn tfbt jihsbw puzzgc io tfc dbrn= \m \m I `chbo ikbhioioh wfbt it wmugd `c ginc mr tfck tm `c bt tfis `ih tb`gc witf tfc gihfts mfi tr yioh tm wmrn tfbt jihsbw puzzgc io tfc dbrn. Molc tfcy tfmuhft tfcy’d tfcy’d hmttco it tmhctfcr, bod tfco I turocd tfc gihfts mo, dm ymu tfion tfc puzzgc piclcs wmugd `c flt tmhctfcr bs tfcy wcrc iotcodcd= I dmo’t dmo’t tfion sm, `clbusc it wmugd `c ocxt tm ikpmssi`gc. Tmsc m us wfm fbvc `cco uobitfug, bod fbvc yct tm rcvcbg tfc stmry, cxpclt mur kbtcs tm wmrn b jihsbw puzzgc io tfc dbrn. Xfco wc lfmmsc tm witffmgd iomrkbtimo, wc tfco mrlc tfck tm lrcbtc tfc piclcs m iomrkbtimo io tfcir kiod. Meco wfbt tfcy ikbhioc is wmrsc tfbo wfbt is rcbg. \m omt mogy brc tfcy tryioh tm wmrn b jihsbw puzzgc io tfc dbrn `ut tfcy bgsm brc tryioh tm wmrn b jihsbw puzzgc io tfc dbrn witf cxtrb piclcs, `clbusc wc’vc ocvcr tmgd tfck wfbt rcbggy fbppcocd. Moc m tfc hrcbtcst hies ymu lbo hivc ymur kbtc—trust kc mo tfis—is tfc b`igity tm nomw wfbt fbppcocd. Tc kmst cficltivc wby tm tcgg tfc stmry is just bs t fbt: b stmry. stmry. cgg tfc stmrygioc io b lmfcrcot bsfimo, omt bs b qucstimo-bod-boswcr ioquisitimo. Ymur spmusc’ spmusc’s qucstimos bod ymur boswcrs brc ikpmrtbot, bod wc wigg wi gg disluss tfmsc gbtcr io
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tfis lfbptcr, `ut mr omw, it’s b`mut hcttioh tfc stmry mut. Tbt sbid, ymu occd tm `c lbrcug. Hivioh tfck tfc stmry dmcso’t dmcso’t bgwbys kcbo spiggioh mut cvcry dctbig bgg bt molc. Tc gcvcg m dctbig tfbt ymur kbtc hcts rmk ymu wfco ymu `chio tm tcgg ymur stmry rcbggy occds tm `c ` c cstb`gisfcd `y tfc `ctrbycd spmusc. Dicrcot pcmpgc fbvc dificrcot gcvcgs m wbotioh tm nomw. nomw. Emr iostbolc, I ginc tfc 21-piclc puzzgcs. \mkc pcmpgc just wbot b cw piclcs m iomrkbtimo, omt bgg tfc dctbig. Yct Yct mr smkc, kmrc nomwgcdhc fcgps. Emr tfcsc pcmpgc, puttioh tfis mut m kiod rcquircs bo comrkmus bkmuot bkmuot m dctbig. Tcy occd tfc 0,111-piclc puzzgc. \m ymu occd tm bsn ymur kbtc bs ymu hm tfrmuhf tfis, t fis, ‗Xfbt gcvcg m dctbig dm ymu rcbggy wbot=‛ Gbln m dctbig dmcs omt kcbo bo iolmfcrcot stmry. Just `clbusc ymu kby omt sfbrc cvcry dctbig dmcs omt kcbo ymu brc purpmscuggy witffmgdioh iomrkbtimo ymur kbtc occds tm fcbr. Pckck`cr, Pckck`cr, tcggioh tfc stmry is omt b moc-tikc cvcot> it is b prmlcss tfbt mllurs mvcr tikc. Bs tfc stmry is tmgd, bdditimobg dctbigs bod iosihfts wigg wmrn tfcir wby iotm tfc stmry bs ymu hbio ocw uodcrstbodiohs bod sfbrc tfck witf ymur spmusc.
B Lmfcrcot \tmry Moc bspclt m lmupgcs wfm dm wcgg io tfc CK\M lmursc is tfcir b`igity tm lmodult rbtimobg vcrsus vcrsus ckmtimobg lmovcrsbtimos. lmovcrsbtimos. Tcy scck tm `c b`gc tm stcp `bln ckmtimobggy, bod tfco rcbgistilbggy gmmn gm mn bt omt mogy wfbt’s wfbt’s fbppcocd `ut wfbt lmugd `c. `c. Dcvcgmpioh tfc b`igity tm dm tfis tbncs prbltilc. @mtf pbrtics fbvc tm `c b`gc tm scg-smmtf bs tfcy t fcy gistco tm tfcir kbtc. Meco, fmwcvcr, boy rcbltivity lrcbtcd `y tfc `ctrbybg fbs tm su`sidc io mrdcr mr tfis tm fbppco. fbppco. Nccp io kiod tfrmuhfmut tfc wmrn`mmn, wmrn`mmn, wfco I tbgn b`mut fbvioh rbtimobg vcrsus ckmtimobg lmovcrsbtimos I’k omt sbyioh ymu wmo’t cxpcricolc ckmtimos. Xfbt I’k I’k rccrrioh tm is kmrc m b ffmmdcd stbtc wfcrc gmhilbg dclisimos bod lmovcrsbtimos brc ikpmssi`gc. ikpmssi`g c. Ymu’gg gcbro kmrc b`mut tfis io Xccn 4. Dbo \ichcg’s rcscbrlf 0 lgcbrgy sfmws tfbt io mrdcr mr tfc pbio bod rcbltivity lrcbtcd `y b `ctrbybg tm su`sidc, tfc `ctrbycd spmusc kust `c b`gc tm kbnc scosc m wfbt fbppcocd. Tc stmry m wfbt fbppcocd fbs tm `c lmfcrcot rmk tfc `ctrbycd spmusc’s pcrspcltivc. Tc mrkbtimo m tfis lmfcrcot stmry bggmws mr b rclmoocltimo `ctwcco b fus`bod bod wic. Io tfc ioitibg stbhcs, tfc `cst ` cst wby tm bllmkpgisf tfis tbsn is `y b giocbr tcggioh m tfc stmry. cggioh tfc stmry iso’t tfc sbkc bs boswcrioh qucstimos. Pbtfcr tfbo jukpioh brmuod, wfilf gcbvcs hbps io tfc tikcgioc, tcggioh tfc stmry rmk `chiooioh tm cod prmvidcs b mrkbt mr tfc `ctrbycd spmusc tm `chio `ch io hcttioh fis mr fcr kiod brmuod wfbt
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fbs mllurrcd. Ercqucotgy Ercqucotgy tfmsc m us wfm fbvc `cco uobitfug brc mficodcd i mur kbtc lmotioucs tm bsn qucstimos molc wc’vc tmgd tfc stmry. Xc ccg tfcy dido’t `cgicvc us bod brc qucstimoioh mur trutfugocss. t rutfugocss. Hcocrbggy tfbt’s tfbt’s omt tfc lbsc. Tc `ctrbycd spmusc dmcso’t dmcso’t bsn qucstimos `clbusc fc mr sfc dmcso’t dmcso’t `cgicvc. Tcy bsn qucstimos `clbusc tfcy wbot tm `cgicvc> yct it dmcso’t dmcso’t kbnc scosc, bod tfcy t fcy fmpc `y bsnioh bhbio tfcy wigg flobggy uodcrstbod. It’s It’s tfbt prmlcss wfilf bggmws mr tfc lrcbtimo m tfc lmfcrcot stmry. stmry.
@chiooioh tfc Jmurocy Ymu kby flod tfbt bttcodioh ymur wccngy tcgcpfmoc lbggs lrcbtcs boxicty. Tbt is omt uolmkkmo. Mur obturbg tcodcoly is tm bvmid pbioug situbtimos. Fmwcvcr Fmwcvcr bs wc kcotimocd gbst wccn, wc occd tm `c br kmrc brbid m omt fcbgioh tfbo wc brc m wbgnioh tfrmuhf tfc pbio m fcbgioh. Qgcbsc dmo’t dmo’t `c dislmurbhcd `y fmw ymu kby `c ccgioh bt tfis tikc. Bs ymur mogioc hrmup `chios tm kcct, it is obturbg mr tfc situbtimo tm scck wmrsc, siolc tfc mlus m tfis t fis flrst pfbsc is b`mut moc m tfc dbrncst bspclts m ymur gic. Ymu kby cvco tfion tfis wigg ocvcr wmrn, citfcr `clbusc ymu’rc ymu’rc omt bs `bd bs cvcrymoc cgsc, ymur situbtimo is uoiquc, mr ymu scck wmrsc mfi tfbo tfc mtfcr lmupgcs ymu sbw mo tfc vidcm bod tfcrc lbo’t pmssi`gy `c boy fmpc mr ymu. Xfbtcvcr ymu’rc tfionioh, dm omt `c dislmurbhcd. Tis is tfc `chiooioh m ymur jmurocy tm fcbgioh. cggioh ymur stmry tm mtfcrs is bwnwbrd, `ut ymu wigg flod it lmkmrtioh tm nomw ymu’rc omt bgmoc. Fmpcuggy it wigg omt `c tmm rihftcoioh, bod wc `cgicvc ymu’gg flod it tm `c ` c tfc `chiooioh m ymur jmurocy. 0.4 Bs ymu `chio ymur jmurocy, wfbt dm ymu fmpc tm bllmkpgisf=
Iosboity lbo `c dcflocd bs dmioh tfc sbkc tfioh mvcr bod mvcr bhbio cxpcltioh b dicrcot mutlmkc. mutlmkc. Xfbt ymu brc omw dmioh, `y tbnioh tfis t fis lmursc, is smkctfioh dificrcot, bod it’s tfc flrst stcp iotm sboity. It kby ccg strbohc, `ut dcspcrbtc situbtimos lbgg mr dcspcrbtc kcbsurcs, bod ymu fbvc omw ck`brncd ck`brncd mo b jmurocy tfbt is iotcodcd tm `rioh b`mut fcbgioh bod lfbohc. I bk ikprcsscd `y tfc lmurbhc ymu brc dispgbyioh `y sfbrioh `mtf gic’s bigurcs bod sullcsscs. 56
CK\ Mogioc
0.3 Io ymur rcgbtimosfip, wfbt fbvc ymu tricd mvcr bod mvcr fmpioh emr b
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0.5 Xfy dm ymu `cgicvc it fbso’t wmrncd=
I wmugdo’t wmugdo’t `c surpriscd i ymu’rc ymu’rc tfionioh, ‗Tis ‗ Tis is outs. I I tcgg ky spmusc tfis, (s)fc’gg gcbvc kc. (\)fc’s hmioh tm `c hmoc.‛ @ut dmo’t gct tfis cbr drivc ymu. I wbot tm rckiod ymu tfbt mvcr 63 pcrlcot m tfc lmupgcs wc wmrn witf stby tmhctfcr. Pckiod ymur kbtc m tfc lmursc lmotrblt ymu’vc sihocd. Pckck`cr ymu fbvc cblf bhrccd tm lrcbtc bo covirmokcot m sbcty. \fbrioh iomrkbtimo b`mut tfc stmry, stmry, iolgudioh prmvidioh tfc dctbigs ymur kbtc occds, is tfc pgblc wfcrc ymu lbo `chio tm rccstb`gisf trust. @chio witf fmocsty. fmocsty. Ymur Ymur kbtc wigg ocvcr `c b`gc tm trust ymu i ymu dmo’t dmo’t flrst trust fik mr fcr witf tfc iomrkbtimo. Omw, Omw, ymu kby kby omt `cgicvc tfbt tfc wmrd trust lbo lbo cvco `c spmnco, kulf gcss tfbt tfc twm m ymu `chio tm trust bhbio. Bltubggy, bt Bfibir Pclmvcry, wc’vc gcbrocd tfbt kbrribhcs lbo tfrivc witf vcry gittgc trust. t rust. \mkc m ymu brc bsnioh, ‗I omt trust, tfco wfbt lmugd `c tfc kmst ikpmrtbot cgckcot io b kbrribhc=‛ \bcty . Fcrc’s wfbt wc kcbo. rust kby `c b gmoh tikc io lmkioh. Yct sbcty—lrcbtioh b sbc covirmokcot mr ymu bod ymur spmusc tm bsn bod boswcr qucstimos bod tcgg tfc stmry—is muodbtimobg tm tfc rcstmrbtimo m trust. Ymu lbo bgwbys rcpgblc trust witf b hrcbt dcbg m fmocsty, bod i ymu lbo gcbro tm `c fmocst bod tm gct hm m tfc lmotrmg bod just `c rcbg, tfco ymu’vc ymu’vc tbnco tfc flrst stcp. Lmosidcr bo ckpgmycr ckpgmycr witf b trustcd ckpgmycc. Dm ymu tfion trust wigg wi gg bligitbtc kmrc mr gcss lmkkuoilbtimo `ctwcco tfc twm pbrtics= pbrt ics= ypilbggy ypilbggy it wmugd rcsugt io br gcss lmkkuoilbtimo lmkkuoilbtimo `clbusc tfc ckpgmycr ckpgmycr wmugd scc gittgc mr om occd tm `c lmkkuoilbtioh witf fis mr fcr ckpgmycc. Tc sbkc is meco truc io kbrribhcs. It’s It’s tfc vcry vcr y trust wc tfion wc wbot tfbt kby wcgg fbvc rcstriltcd tfc lmkkuoilbtimo bod fmocsty wc sm dcspcrbtcgy occd. Pchbioioh trust `chios `y trustioh ymur kbtc comuhf tm `c fmocst. Io Xccn 0 | Ymur \tmry / Rucstimos
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mtfcr wmrds, `chio `y trutfuggy tcggioh tfc stmry, bod sclmod, bs ymur kbtc `chios tm bsn qucstimos, boswcr trutfuggy bod trust tfck witf tfc iomrkbtimo. Xfigc ymu bod/mr ymur spmusc stigg kby wbot tm bddrcss tfc tmpil m trust omw, pgcbsc `c pbticot witf tfis prmlcss. Molc wc fbvc spcot scvcrbg wccns tcggioh tfc stmry witf fmocsty bod tfco wmrnioh tfrmuhf kboy m tfc issucs rcgbtcd tm tfc `ctrbybg, wc wigg turo tm tfc t fc su`jclt m trust io Xccn Xccn 2<. Qrbltilc tcggioh ymur stmry. Bt tfis pmiot, ymu occd tm sit dmwo bod tcgg ymur spmusc tfc stmry me tfc `ctrbybg ermk pmiot B tm pmiot Z. Xc nomw qucstimos wigg lmkc, `ut flrst tfc stmry occds tm hct mut. Tcgg tfc stmry io its tikcgioc bs ymur kbtc gistcos witfmut bsnioh qucstimos. Mtfcrwisc, molc tfc qucstimos stbrt, tfc stmry kby hct dcrbigcd. Betcr tfc stmry is tmgd, gct ymur kbtc bsn qucstimos bod tfco prmvidc tfc lgbrifllbtimo fc mr sfc occds.
Bs wc kcotimocd cbrgicr, cbrgicr, tfc rcvcgbtimo m b `ctrbybg meco fbs b ‗trbhil bllidcot‛ smrt m sihoifllbolc. Emr `mtf m ymu, tfc situbtimo itscg kby ccg bs i ymu’vc ymu’vc suddcogy brrivcd bt b typc m hrmuod zcrm, surrmuodcd `y tfc ru``gc m rckiodcrs m wfbt molc wbs mr bt gcbst tfc iggusimo i ggusimo m wfbt ymu molc tfmuhft cxistcd. Io blt, hrmuod zcrm iso’t iso’t rcblfcd uotig ymur stmry is uggy rcvcbgcd witf bgg tfc dctbigs mut io tfc mpco. Qrimr tm tfc lmkpgctc tcggioh m tfc stmry, stmry, tfcrc is bgwbys tfc risn m kmrc dcstrultivc iomrkbtimo `cioh rcvcbgcd, ioffiltioh tfc `ctrbycd spmusc witf ocw wmuods. Omt uotig tfc stmry is uggy nomwo bod tfc gbst sclrct rcgcbscd lbo b lmupgc brrivc bt hrmuod h rmuod zcrm. Molc tfcrc, ymu lbo flobggy `chio tm cxpgmrc tfc ruios m ymur rcgbtimosfip. rcgbtimosfip. Bt tfc sbkc tikc, tfis hrmuod zcrm scrvcs bs tfc `irtfpgblc m ocw pmssi`igitics. Tcrc is om hrcbt wby mr tfc stmry tm lmkc tm gihft, `ut tfc stmr y occds tm `c tmgd. \clrcly is tfc gbrhcst lmotri`utioh bltmr io prm`gcks m iotikbly bod fcbgioh. It is sbid tfbt tfc trutf wigg wig g sct ymu rcc, `ut bomtfcr wby m stbtioh tfbt rcbgity is tfbt ‗fmocsty wigg sct ymu rcc.‛ Tc oilc tfioh b`mut fmocsty is tfbt t fbt it hivcs uoivcrsbg bllcss tm cvcrymoc io tfc fcbgioh prmlcss. Bgkmst boymoc lbo `c fmocst, bod it is prcliscgy bt tfis pmiot tfbt fcbgioh wigg `chio. It’s ikpmrtbot tm rckck`cr tfbt ymu’rc mogy bs siln bs ymur sclrcts. Cblf m ymu occds tm tbnc tfc risn m mpcoioh up. Butfmr Butfmr Dbo Bggcodcr, io fis `mmn m @c mgd, sbys tfbt tfc pbrts m tfc stmry tfbt rckbio uotmgd brc mwocd `y tfc dcvig. < I lmugdo’t bhrcc kmrc. Ymu lbo ocvcr kmvc mrwbrd bs gmoh bs ymu’rc fmgdioh `bln. Cxpcricolc fbs sfmwo tfbt mr kmst pcmpgc, it is ikpmssi`gc tm uggy rccohbhc btcr b `ctrbybg uotig tfc `ctrbycd spmusc nomws wfbt fbs fbppcocd. I b kbtc suspclts
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bo bfibir bod fis mr fcr spmusc rcuscs tm bddrcss tfc issuc, wfbt is fc mr sfc tm dm= @ ctrbycd spmuscs try tm wmrn tfc puzzgc, tm hct tfc pilturc, `ut rcqucotgy tfcy brc io tfc dbrn, bod duc tm tfcir mvcrbltivc ikbhiobtimos, ikbhiobtimos, tfcy brc wmrnioh witf cxtrb piclcs. Tcy lrcbtc pmssi`igitics io tfcir kiod tfbt t fbt prm`b`gy ocvcr fbppcocd. Bdkittcdgy, tfcrc brc tfmsc iodividubgs wfm dmo’t wbot tm nomw bod brc kmrc lmkmrtb`gc givioh io dcoibg, `ut mr cvcr y moc m tfcsc, tfcrc brc lmuotgcss mtfcrs wfm ccg tfcy lbo’t lbo’t kmvc mrwbrd uotig tfcy nomw wfbt fbs mllurrcd. Io blt, tfc gcvcg m dctbig occdcd sccks tm `c drivco `y tfc `ctrbycd spmusc’s spmusc’s pcrsmobgity. \mkc dmo’t dmo’t wbot tm nomw> kby`c tfcy just dmo’t dmo’t wbot tm wmrn tfc puzzgc. Mtfcrs ccg tfcy kust lmkpgctc cvcry tioy dctbig m tfcir t fcir puzzgc io i o mrdcr tm fcbg. Tc uobitfug uobitfug spmusc spmusc kust lfcln witf fis mr fcr kbtc b`mut tfc gcvcg m dctbig tfbt is dcsircd. Bod mr tfc sbnc m fcgpioh tfc `ctrbycd spmusc fcbg, it’s ikpmrtbot tm fmocstgy sfbrc tfc occdcd iomrkbtimo. Ymu kby ccg om m`gihbtimo tm prmvidc tfc iomrkbtimo, `ut i ymur bltimos fbvc scrimusgy wmuodcd ymur kbtc, I’d suhhcst ymu dm fbvc b rcspmosi`igity tm prmvidc tfc iomrkbtimo oclcssbry mr fcbgioh. Tc `ctrbycd spmusc fbs tm uodcrstbod wfbt fbs fbppcocd, bod wmrn tfc puzzgc `cmrc `chiooioh tm mrhivc bod kmvc mo.
Tfc Pcbsmos emr Rucstimos Qbrt m sfbrioh tfc stmry bod hivioh ymur spmusc tfc t fc bkmuot m iomrkbtimo fc mr sfc occds is gcttioh ymur kbtc bsn qucstimos tm rclcivc tfc iomrkbtimo io b wby tfbt is lmkmrtb`gc bod fcgpug. Ycs, Ycs, it is b gittgc slbry wfco w fco ymu `chio tm sfbrc dctbigs witf ymur spmusc, `ut ymu wigg `c br `cttcr mfi i ymu boswcr cvcry qucstimo fc mr sfc fbs, bt tfc gcvcg m dctbig fc mr sfc wbots. Xc rclmkkcod rclmkkcod ymu `chio boswcrioh tfmsc qucstimos omw, i ymu fbvc omt yct dmoc sm, bod mficr tfbt iomrkbtimo. Lbutimo: Lbutimo: @cwbrc m lmkpbrismo qucstimos. Tis prmlcss is omt b`mut lmkpbrioh wfbt ymu did mutsidc tfc kbrribhc witf wfbt tfc twm m ymu fbvc sfbrcd iosidc tfc kbrribhc. Ymu dmo’t wbot ymur `ctrbycd spmusc tm lmkpbrc tfckscg bhbiost bomtfcr pcrsmo. Lmkpbrismo qucstimos brc tfc gcbst `cocfllibg bod lbusc dbkbhioh iotrusivc tfmuhfts. Bs b huidcgioc: boy qucstimo tfbt bggmws ymur spmusc tm pbiot b pilturc io fis mr fcr kiod iso’t fcgpug. Moc m tfc distiohuisfioh bltmrs m tfc CK\ Mogioc bpprmblf Mogioc bpprmblf tm tfc trcbtkcot m iofl-
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dcgity is fmocsty, fmocsty, `ut smkctikcs sccnioh tfc boswcr tm qucstimos mr tfc sbnc m fmocsty `clmkcs kmrc lmuotcrprmdultivc lmuotcrprmdultivc tfbo prmdultivc. Tc hmbg m qucstimoioh (wfilf (w filf wc wigg disluss gbtcr io tfc lfbptcr) dctcrkiocs i it’s it’s b fcbgtfy mr uofcbgtfy cxcrlisc. I tfc hmbg is rclmvcry bod wfmgcocss, tfco fmpcuggy tfc prmlcss m qucstimoioh rckbios lmosistcot lmosistcot witf tfmsc hmbgs. Io tfc ioitibg stbhcs m tcggioh bod fcbrioh tfc stmry, tfcrc brc kugtipgc rcbsmos rcbsmos ymur spmusc kihft `chio tm bsn qucstimos. Becr bgg, `mtf p brtics occd tm lmkc tm b pgblc m uodcrstbodioh. Kmst uobitfug spmuscs bssukc tfcir spmusc wbots tm puoisf t fck. @ut nccp io kiod, i ymu brc tfc uobitfug kbtc, ymur pbrtocr’s pbrtocr’s qucstimoioh is omt just b`mut ymu, it’s b`mut fik mr fcr. Emr smkc, bsnioh qucstimos fbs `clmkc tfc mogy wby tfcy nomw fmw tm tbgn witf tfcir kbtc. Emr mtfcrs, it’s b wby m scg-smmtfioh> qucstimos brisc tm dcbg witf tfc obhhioh ochbtivc tfmuhfts io tfcir fcbd. \tigg mtfcrs bsn qucstimos bs b cbr-rcdultimo cbr-rcdultimo tbltil. Cblf tikc tfcy ccg brbid, tfcy hm tm tfcir kbtc bod try tm hbrocr bssurbolc `y hcttioh boswcrs. Tc kmrc meco tfcy hct tfc t fc sbkc boswcr tm b qucstimo, tfc kmrc bssurbolc tfcy’gg ccg. Eiobggy, kboy io tfcsc situbtimos usc qucstimoioh bs b wby tm hct tfcir kiod brmuod wfbt fbs fbppcocd. Tcy wbot tm `cgicvc tfcir spmusc is tcggioh tfc trutf, `ut io rcblfioh tfis rcbssurbolc, rcbssurbolc, tfcy kby occd tm bsn qucstimos bhbio bod bhbio. Tcy wbot tm fcbr tfc sbkc boswcr uotig tfcy rcblf tfc p miot m `cioh b`gc tm `cgicvc tfc boswcr. Xfco it lmkcs tm qucstimoioh, tfcrc brc tikcs wfco bgg tfc b`mvc-kcotimocd kmtivbtimos (cxlcpt mr puoisfkcot) brc bpprmpribtc, `ut mogy mr b scbsmo. Emr iostbolc, i `ctrbycd spmuscs hct stuln io tfc prmlcss m dislmvcry, tfcy’gg wiod up spiooioh ginc b tmp, uob`gc tm stmp tfcir uocodioh strcbk m qucstimos. Tc prm`gck fcrc gics io t fc wfy . Tc flrst hmbg m qucstimos is tm ugtikbtcgy hct ymur fcbd bod fcbrt brmuod wfbt fbs fbppcocd sm ymu lbo `chio ` chio tm kmvc mrwbrd. m dm tfbt, tfc `ctrbycd spmusc sccns tfc occdcd iomrkbtimo rmk tfc kbtc io mrdcr tm uodcrstbod wfbt fbppcocd . Tc wfy kust bgsm lmkc, bod tfbt wc wigg dcbg witf io Xccn <. Nccp io kiod tfbt witfmut tfc boswcrs tm `mtf wfbt fbppcocd bod bod wfy it fbppcocd , it’s fbrd mr tfc `ctrbycd spmusc tm ccg sbc bod lmotiouc lmotiouc mo io tfc rclmvcry jmurocy. Emr tfis wccn, mlus mo sfbrioh wfbt fbppcocd . It’s omt uolmkkmo mr tfc qucstimo-bod-boswcr pcrimd tm scrvc mtfcr uoltimos. Emr kmst, just hcttioh boswcrs prmvidcs rcbssurbolc rcbssurbolc m tfcir kbtcs’ kbtcs’ gmybgty tm tfck, bod tfis fcgps rcdulc tfc pbio m tfc `ctrbybg. Bomtfcr `cocflt m bsnioh qucstimos is tfc rcdultimo m iotrusivc tfmuhfts. Becr b `ctrbybg it’s it’s fukbo obturc tm try tm flhurc mut wfbt fbppcocd bod wfy. wfy. Tmuhfts bod ikbhcs lbo lmkc ffmmdioh ffmm dioh iotm mur kiods, fmgdioh us lbptivc, uob`gc tm tfion m kulf cgsc. Eiodioh boswcrs tm tfcsc qucstimos
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meco prmvidcs wcglmkc rcgic—`mtf rcgic—`mtf rmk tfc obhhioh obhh ioh tfmuhfts bod rmk tfc bllmkpboyioh cbr. Becr tcggioh tfc `ctrbybg stmry, tfc flrst tfioh ymu lbo dm tm rcbggy fcgp ymur kbtc’s rclmvcry is boswcr fis mr fcr qucstimos. Tcrc brc kboy rcbsmos wc big tm rcspmod wfco qucstimocd. Kmst rcqucotgy, fmwcvcr, it’s cbr. Omt cbr mr mur spmuscs, `ut rbtfcr cbr m tfck tfck bod wfbt w fbt tfcir bltimos kihft lmst us. Xc Xc try tm lmotrmg tfcir rcbltimos `y lmotrmggioh tfc iomrkbtimo. Xfigc tfis kby bppcbr tm `c gmvioh, it’s it’s omt. It is omt gmvioh tm tfck bod lcrtbiogy omt gmvioh tm murscgvcs. Xfbt Xfbt rihft dm wc fbvc tm rm` tfck m kbnioh b lfmilc= I wc nomw tfcy wmugd wbot tm nomw tfc trutf, fmw lbo wc justiy omt tcggioh tfck `y usioh tfc rbtimobgizbtimo tfbt tfcy sfmugdo’t sfmugdo’t fbvc tm furt `clbusc m wfbt wc’vc dmoc= Sgtikbtcgy, tfbt justifllbtimo is stigg 211% scg-lcotcrcd. 0.8 Xfbt brc ymur ecbrs b`mut boswcrioh ymur kbtc’s qucstimos=
Qgcbsc dmo’t tfion I’k sbyioh tfbt tfc prmlcss m boswcrioh ymur kbtc’s qucstimos is just b wby tm uogmbd ymur huigt. I ymu tcgg ymur spmusc mr tfc sbnc m rcgicvioh ymur huigt, tfbt’s tfc wrmoh kmtivbtimo `clbusc it’s vmid m gmvc. Fmpcuggy ymu dmo’t usc fmocsty tm kbnc ymurscg ccg `cttcr—fmocsty `cttcr—fmocsty sfmugd `c uscd tm `rioh gic. Trmuhf fmocsty, gmybgty is rccstb`gisfcd. Ymur wiggiohocss tm hivc ymur spmusc tfc iomrkbtimo occdcd tm gcssco tfc iotrusivc iotrusivc tfmuhfts is lrulibg tm `chio tfc jmurocy m fcbgioh. Just `clbusc it dmcso’t kbnc scosc tm ymu dmcso’t kcbo ymur kbtc dmcso’t occd tfc boswcrs. I mvcr tikc ymur boswcrs tm ymur spmusc’s qucstimos big tm `c fcgpug, ymu kihft wbot tm lmosidcr tfbt fmw ymu’rc ymu’rc prmlcssioh iomrkbtimo kihft omt `c tfc t fc `cst bpprmblf tm ymu bod ymur spmusc’s prm`gck. Meco it’s omt b`mut tfc boswcrs tfckscgvcs, `ut kmrc b`mut fmw ymu hivc tfc boswcrs. B lmotritc spirit tfbt lmkkuoilbtcs lmolcro mr ymur kbtc lmkkuoilbtcs br kmrc gmvc tfbo cvco tfc `cst boswcr. Lmgdgy boswcrioh qucstimos bs b wby m bvmidioh ymur mwo dislmkmrt wmo’t `c ocbrgy bs fcgpug. Ymur kbtc wigg rcspmod br kmrc tm fmw ymu ccg b`mut b`mut tfck tfbo tm wfbt ymu sby. sby. I ymu lbrc tfbt ymu furt ymur kbtc, tfco tr y tm lmkkuoilbtc tfbt bs ymu pbrtilipbtc tmhctfcr io dislmvcry. Tc qucstimoioh pfbsc lbo lcrtbiogy iolrcbsc iotikbly mr kmst lmupgcs. Just boswcrioh ymur kbtc’s qucstimos prmvidcs kmrc iotikbly bod cohbhckcot tfbo ymu Xccn 0 | Ymur \tmry / Rucstimos
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kby fbvc fbd io ycbrs. Tcrcmrc it is pmssi`gc mr tfc ‗qucstimoioh prmlcss‛ tm prmvidc b wby tm ioitibtc iotikbly bhbio. Bod wfigc tfbt io itscg iso’t iso’t `bd (i `mtf pcmpgc brc mo `mbrd), tfc gbst tfioh ymu wbot io tfc gmoh ruo r uo is mr iofldcgity tm `c tfc prikbry mlus m ymur rcgbtimosfip. Ymu wbot tm `c b`gc tm tbnc tfis ocwmuod iotikbly, kmvc mrwbrd pbst tfc iofldcgity, bod flod ocw lmostrultivc wbys tm lmooclt bod lmkkuoilbtc iotikbtcgy io tfc kbrribhc bhbio.
Ckmtimos io Rucstimos Moc lbutimo io tfc qucstimoioh pfbsc iovmgvcs ckmtimos. ckmtimos. Tmuhf mur kmtivcs kby `c rihft io bsnioh qucstimos m mur spmusc, mur ccgiohs lbo lmkpgilbtc tfiohs. Ckmtimos lrcbtc b occd mr kmtimo, wfilf tfco t fco drivc bltimos. Bsnioh ckmtimobggy lfbrhcd qucstimos kby `c iotcrprctcd bs puoisfkcot, `ut `cfbvimr dmcso’t bgwbys cqubg kmtivcs. Ymur spmusc’s qucstimos kby `c kmtivbtcd `y cbr, b occd mr dctbig, b dcsirc tm scgsmmtf—wfilf lcrtbiogy iso’t iso’t iotcodcd bs b mrk m puoisfkcot. Ckmtimos lbo bgsm drivc us tm blt io wbys lmotrbry tm mur truc fcbrt’s dcsirc. Fc mr sfc kby `c ckmtimobg, `ut tfc rcbsmos mr tfc qucstimos brc tm dislmvcr tfc trutf, tm kbobhc ckmtimos, tm rchugbtc cbr, cbr, tm rcdulc sfbkc, bod tm dcbg witf iotrusivc tfmuhfts rchbrdioh tfc `ctrbybg. `ct rbybg. Fc mr sfc is sccnioh lmpioh strbtchics tm lmotiouc mrwbrd io tfis prmlcss m rclmvcry. Bomtfcr pmtcotibg rcbsmo mr bsnioh qucstimos becr tfc stmry is rcvcbgcd is b dcsirc tm lmooclt bhbio bod tm `c uodcrstmmd. Tc purpmsc m qucstimos iso’t iso’t tm tcst ymu mr tm try tm lbtlf ymu io b gic. It’s mr ymur spmusc’s fcbgioh. Fcbrioh tfc sbkc boswcr mvcr bod mvcr fcgps lbgk fis mr fcr cbrs. Mur prm`gck lmkcs rmk tfc sfbkc wc stigg lbrry b`mut wfbt wc’vc dmoc. Xc’d rbtfcr omt tbgn b`mut it, `ut omt tbgnioh b`mut it rm`s mur kbtc m wfbt fc mr sfc occds tm fcbg. Tc mogy wby tm nccp tfc prmlcss mo lmursc is tm rclmhoizc tfcsc p mtcotibg kmti vbtimos mr mr qucstimos `cioh bsncd bsncd `y ymur ymur kbtc.. kbtc.. Lmupgcs wfm lbo rbtimobggy rbtimobggy fcbr (mr lmkkuoilbtc) lmkkuoilbtc) tfc iomrkbtimo, tbgn b`mut it, bod bobgyzc it tmhctfcr dm br `cttcr io tfc rclmvcry prmlcss. Tmsc wfm boswcr tfc qucstimos bod dmo’t dmo’t gct tfck `uigd up wigg kmvc tmwbrd fcbgioh kulf quilncr.
Huidcgiocs io Bsnioh bod Boswcrioh Rucstimos Xfco boswcrioh qucstimos, `c bs fmocst bs pmssi`gc p mssi`gc witf ymur spmusc. ry omt tm kioikizc wfbt fbppcocd. Ymu’rc br `cttcr mfi pbiotioh tfc pilturc tmm `gbln tfbo wfitc84
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wbsfioh tfc dctbigs. @clbusc ckmtimos wigg pgby b pbrt io tfc qucstimoioh prmlcss, smkc huidcgiocs wigg `c fcgpug.
2. Hivc Ymur \pmusc tfc Pihft Ioemrkbtimo tm Sodcrstbod Xfbt Fbppcocd Sotig ymur spmusc is b`gc tm hct fis mr fcr kiod brmuod wfbt fbppcocd, tfcrc is b pbrt m tfck tfbt kby lmotiouc scbrlfioh mr iomrkbtimo iomrkbtimo tm uodcrstbod tfcir ocw rcbgity. Sotig tfcy fbvc tfmsc boswcrs, it’s dilugt tm nomw fmw tm kmvc mrwbrd. Io blt, tfcsc boswcrs pgby b vitbg rmgc io fcbgioh becr bo bfibir. Xitfmut boswcrs ymur spmusc’s kiod lbo ruo wigd, ikbhioioh situbtimos tfbt ocvcr fbppcocd. @ut fmw kulf dm tfcy rcbggy occd tm nomw= m `chio, ymu occd tm prmvidc tfc `bsil dctbigs m wfbt fbppcocd. Ymur spmusc fbs smkc cxbkpgc qucstimos io tfcir wmrn`mmn. wmrn`mmn . \tbrt `y boswcrioh tfmsc qucstimos bs tfmrmuhfgy bs pmssi`gc, bod tfco mggmw tfc huidcs `cgmw mr fmw tm boswcr kmrc spclifll qucstimos witfmut dmioh boy kmrc fbrk.
0. Bvmid Lmkpbrismo Rucstimos Moc typc m qucstimoioh tfbt wigg omt fcgp ymur spmusc fcbg is lmkpbrismo qucstimos, sulf bs spclifll qucstimos b`mut fmw ymu bltcd mut scxubggy witf tfc bfibir pbrtocr mr b`mut pfysilbg bttri`utcs. Tcsc qucstimos lbusc prm`gcks witf iotrusivc tfmuhfts. Tcsc qucstimos dmo’t dmo’t prmvidc rcgcvbot iomrkbtimo bod wigg bgsm lbusc iotrusivc tfmuhfts t fmuhfts wcgg becr tfc bfibir fbs codcd. Tc urhc tm bsn tfcsc typcs m qucstimos wigg ` c strmoh. Qgcbsc fcbr kc wfco I sby tfbt tfis iomrkbtimo fbs tfc pmtcotibg tm lbusc uooclcssbry dilugty io tfc t fc fcbgioh prmlcss bod ugtikbtcgy survivioh iofldcgity bgtmhctfcr. bgtmhctfcr. Emr kmrc fcgp fbodgioh tfcsc typcs m qucstimos, usc tfc flef huidcgioc mo tfis gist, tfc 04 fmur rugc.
<. Gikit ‗Xfy‛ Rucstimos I nomw tfis sccks lmuotcr-iotuitivc. Ymur spmusc wigg prm`b`gy ccg tfbt witfmut smkc uodcrstbodioh m wfy it fbppcocd, tfcy lboomt dctcrkioc i tfcrc’s fmpc tm prcvcot tfis rmk fbppcoioh bhbio. Fmwcvcr, tfcrc is b strmoh gincgifmmd tfbt ymu dmo’t dmo’t cvco uggy uodcrstbod wfy it fbppcocd yct, sm dmo’t hct stuln mo tfis qucstimo. It kby tbnc smkc tikc `cmrc ymu
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lbo boswcr tfis, bod ymu dmo’t wbot tm sikpgy pbliy ymur spmusc witf bgsc iomrkbtimo. bnc bnc tfc tikc tm trugy dislmvcr wfy `cmrc vcoturioh mut tm boswcr tfis qucstimo.
4. Dmo’t Kbnc Kbttcrs Xmrsc @y . . . Kbnioh Kbnioh fbsty dclisimos: Ymu lbo ocvcr tcgg tfc cod m tfc stmry `y tfc
`chiooioh, wfilf is lcrtbiogy truc m lmupgcs dcbgioh witf `ctrbybg. m hct tfc occdcd iomrkbtimo, `mtf ymu bod ymur pbrtocr occd tm ccg sbc. Tis prcscots b lfbggcohc i cosuioh lfbms lrcbtcd `y tfc dislmvcry gcbvcs tfc twm m ymu uob`gc tm iotcrblt. It’s It’s tckptioh tm try tr y bod stmp tfc pbio `y tryioh tm dclidc wfbt tm dm b`mut tfc kbrribhc, `ut omw iso’t iso’t tfc tikc tm kbnc dclisimos. Ymur `cst dclisimo wmo’t `c kbdc io bo ckmtimobg stbtc. Hivc ymurscg pcrkissimo omt tm dclidc. Fmpcuggy, Fmpcuggy, ymur hmbg is tm flod b `cttcr gic, bod ymu kby flod ymur `cst mppmrtuoity mr tfbt gic is io ymur lurrcot rcgbtimosfip. Trboskittioh ymur pbio: Ymu kby flod it tckptioh tm gbsf mut mr ihomrc ymur spmusc io rcspmosc tm sfbkc mr cvco bohcr, `ut ymu’gg mogy cgmohbtc
bod rustrbtc tfc fcbgioh prmlcss. Qbio tfbt’s tfbt’s omt trbosmrkcd wigg `c trboskittcd, bod tfc gbst tfioh ymu wbot is tm trboskit tfis pbio tm mtfcr ioomlcot pbrtics. Fmpcuggy ymu lbo `c tfc moc wfm `chios tm rcspmod io b wby tm fcbg tfc pbio `y bggmwioh ymur spmusc tm hricvc h ricvc wfbt fbs fbppcocd. ry omt tm hct dccosivc wfco ymur kbtc bsns qucstimos. Tis is lritilbg io tfc dislmvcry prmlcss bod tm fcbgioh becr bo bfibir. Gcttioh ymur ckmtimos ruo uolfclncd: uolfclncd: Iofldcgity bficlts cvcrymoc dificr-
cotgy, `ut moc tfioh mr lcrtbio is tfbt it lfbohcs cvcrytfioh. Ymu kby `c ccgioh b tmrrcot m ckmtimos rbohioh rmk sfbkc bod scg-gmbtfioh tm bohcr bod rcscotkcot, `ut I colmurbhc ymu tm tbnc rcspmosi`igity bod mlus mo `cioh sbc mr ymur kbtc. Dmkcstil vimgcolc is bhbiost t fc gbw, gbw, bod cvco i ymu dmo’t wbot ymur kbrribhc, ymu occd tm nccp ymur bohcr io lfcln. iso’t comuhf. I’k Pceusioh tm hct fcgp: @cgicvioh ymu’gg ocvcr dm tfis bhbio iso’t surc mo ymur wcddioh dby ymu ocvcr wmugd fbvc ikbhiocd ymu’d `c io tfis pgblc. Kmvioh `cymod ymur iofldcgity kby rcquirc mutsidc fcgp. Dmo’t gct pridc nccp ymu rmk hcttioh tfc fcgp ymu occd tm flod b `cttcr gic. \urviv85
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ioh iofldcgity rcquircs tfc fukigity tm hct occdcd fcgp.
3. Ssc tfc 04-Fmur Pugc I ymu scosc ymur spmusc is bsnioh qucstimos mut m bohcr mr mtfcr ckmtimos, mr tfbt tfcy kby omt rcbggy wbot tfc gcvcg m dctbig rcqucstcd, bsn tfck tm writc wr itc dmwo tfc qucstimo bod prby b`mut it mr twcoty-mur fmurs tm dctcrkioc i tfcy rcbggy wbot tfbt gcvcg m dctbig, mr i t fcir ckmtimos wcrc tmm iovmgvcd io tfbt qucstimo. I tfcy stigg wbot tm nomw becr 04 fmurs, tfco boswcr tfc t fc qucstimo trutfuggy.
5. Om Kbrbtfmoioh Bggmw ymur kbtc tm rcspmod tm ymur boswcrs, `ut colmurbhc tfck omt tm gbpsc iotm kbrbtfmoioh. Molc b lmovcrsbtimo lmovcrsbtimo hmcs gmohcr tfbo tco tm flecco kioutcs, it gcbvcs tfc blt-flodioh bod lgbrifllbtimo stbhc bod hmcs tm gclturioh, wfilf wigg omt fcgp lrcbtc sbcty mr citfcr spmusc.
8. Om Dcbg @rcbncrs Bsn ymur spmusc tm `c sbc comuhf mr ymu tm `c fmocst witfmut cbrioh tfbt boy pbrtilugbr qucstimo, boswcr, mr dctbig kihft gcbd tm b dcbg `rcbncr mr ugtikbtuk rmk fik mr fcr.
6. Nccp \becty Eirst io tfc Rucstimoioh bod Boswcrioh Pckck`cr ymur lmkkitkcot tm prmvidc sbcty mr ymur spmusc. Dctcrkioc tfc sbcst wby mr ymu bod ymur spmusc sp musc tm bddrcss tfc qucstimos sm tfbt tfcy `rioh tfc kmst fmocst rcsugts bod sm tfbt ymu `mtf nomw t fcy wigg `c boswcrcd. Io sccnioh sbcty, sbcty, lmosidcr tfc tikioh bod tfc kctfmd m bsnioh bod boswcrioh qucstimos. Becr lmosidcrioh bgg tfc b`mvc huidcgiocs, ymu bod ymur kbtc sfmugd lmosidcr wfbt qucstimos occd tm `c bsncd bod boswcrcd tm prmvidc kmrc dctbig bod lgbrifllbtimo rchbrdioh tfc `ctrbybg stmry stmr y. Bgsm lmosidcr wfbt qucstimos kby fbvc `cco bsncd bod boswcrcd mut m cxlcss ckmtimo bod kby occd tm `c rclmosidcrcd rclmosidcrcd io gihft gih ft m tfcsc huidcgiocs tm hbio tfc kmst `cocflt mr `mtf m ymu.
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Fbvc ymu bttckptcd tm boswcr ymur kbtc’s qucstimos=
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0.22 Ie qucstimos rckbio, wfbt dm ymu ecbr ie ymu tcgg ymur kbtc wfbt fc mr sfc
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\mkc Eiobg Tfmuhfts b`mut Tcggioh tfc \tmry \tmr y bod Bsnioh Rucstimos Bs I stbrtcd tm rcgby ky pcrsmobg stmry m `ctrbybg tm ky wic, I `chbo witf, ‗I’vc hmt smkctfioh tm tcgg ymu. I’vc `cco uobitfug, wfbt dm ymu wbot tm nomw=‛ Tco I prmlccdcd tm hivc fcr b `rmbd mutgioc m wfbt fbd rcbggy `cco hmioh mo rmk tfc `chiooioh m mur kbrribhc. \mkc m ymu rcbdioh tfis t fis kby `c bsnioh, ‗Xfy wmugd ymu wbot tm tcgg=‛ Ymu tcgg `clbusc ymu brc b pcrsmo m iotchrity. Ymu tcgg `clbusc ymur kbtc dcscrvcs it. Ymur kbtc occds tm `c b`gc tm kbnc fis mr fcr mwo dclisimo b`mut wfctfcr tm stby. m dm boytfioh mtfcr tfbo tcgg ymur spmusc tfc trutf t rutf is lmotrmggioh bod kboipugbtivc. Xfy wmugd ymu wbot tm lmotrmg ymur kbtc’s dclisimo `y lmotrmggioh tfc ffmw m iomrkbtimo= Gct ymur kbtc kbnc fis mr fcr mwo lbgg. ‗Xfbt dm ymu wbot tm nomw=‛ is b hrcbt stbrtioh pgblc. I’vc muod tfbt tcggioh tfc stmry rmk `chiooioh tm cod is cxtrckcgy `cocfllibg. Tis bpprmblf prmvidcs prmvidcs tfc tikcgioc oclcssbry mr tfc `ctrbycd spmusc tm `chio rcwritioh tfcir fistmry. Bhbio, smkc wbot just tfc `brc kioikuk, wfigc mtfcrs brc ‗nomwgcdhc fmuods‛ fmuods‛ bod occd vmgukcs m iomrkbtimo. Pckck`cr, ymur kbtc’s pcrsmobgity typc wigg drivc tfc cxtcot m fmw kulf fc mr sfc occds tm nomw. Emr tfc `ctrbycd spmusc, tfc iomrkbtimo iso’t prikbrigy b`mut wfctfcr tm gcbvc mr stby, it’s b`mut puttioh cbrs tm rcst. @ctrbycd spmuscs cbr wfbt tfcy dmo’t dmo’t nomw, bod wfbt tfcy ikbhioc is hcocrbggy br wmrsc tfco wfbt bltubggy mllurrcd. Tc iomrkbtimo ymu hivc prmvidcs b stbrtioh pgblc mr prmlcssioh wfbt fbs fbppcocd. Tc stmry occds tm `c tmgd. Omt tm dm sm kioikizcs tfc bllmkpgisfkcots bllmkpgisfkcots m ymur ymur rclmvcry jmurocy. jmurocy. Omt tm dm sm wigg gcbvc ymu wmodcrioh i ymu lmugd fbvc rclmoligcd 86
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fbd ymu nomwo tfc wfmgc trutf. Omt tm dm sm s m wigg rcvcbg b gbln m bitf io `mtf ymu bod ymur kbtc wfco it lmkcs tm tfis prmlcss. Omt tm dm sm wigg gcbvc ymu witf tfc p mssi`igity m uturc lrisis i bod wfco iomrkbtimo omt sfbrcd lmkcs tm gihft. Ymu lbo ocvcr `c gmvcd uolmoditimobggy i ymu mogy lmoditimobggy gct ymur kbtc nomw wfm ymu brc. \fbrioh tfbt stmry lbo `c tfc `chiooioh m bggmwioh Hmd’s Hmd’s kcrly iotm ymur rcgbtimosfip io b ocw wby. @cmrc sfbrioh ymur stmry witf ymur hrmup, I fihfgy rclmkkcod ymu kbnc surc ymu fbvc bgrcbdy sfbrcd ymur stmry witf ymur kbtc bod boswcrcd bgg tfcir qucstimos. Tc purpmsc m Xccn 0 is omt tm prmvidc b vcouc mr ocw iomrkbtimo. It is, fmwcvcr, b sbc pgblc tm `chio tm blc bod bllcpt ymur rcbgity. It It is tfc pgblc wfcrc wc wigg wi gg vicw hrmuod zcrm bod hricvc wfbt fbs `cco gmst. Bt tfc sbkc tikc, i ymu fbvc tfc lmurbhc, it wigg `c tfc pgblc m ocw `chiooiohs. I ymu flod tfbt ymu brc struhhgioh str uhhgioh becr ymu sfbrc ymur stmry witf w itf tfc hrmup, tfco pgcbsc kbnc usc m ymur skbgg hrmup wbgg. Ymu’gg Ymu’gg `c surpriscd `y t fc suppmrt ymu lbo flod io ymur hrmup. Tcrc is fmpc! Dmo’t hivc up! Xitf ymur mogioc hrmup, sfbrc ymur stmry, st mry, kbnioh surc ymur spmusc fbs flrst sfbrcd it witf ymu. Xfco ymu prbltilc `cemrc tfc hrmup, gcbro tm gistco witfmut dircltioh ymur spmusc bs fc f c mr sfc spcbns. Tm bggmw cblf lmupgc tikc tm sfbrc, ymu wigg fbvc flvc kioutcs tm tcgg ymur stmry. Betcr ymur spmusc fbs sfbrcd witf ymu, fc mr sfc kby occd tm prbltilc tcggioh tfc stmry witfio tfis tikcerbkc `cemrc ymur hrmup kcctioh. Tfc uoebitfeug spmusc wigg hm flrst, tcggioh wfbt fbppcocd, emggmwcd `y tfc `ctrbycd spmusc, wfm wigg sfbrc fmw f mw fc mr sfc rcspmodcd. Tfco, `mtf me ymu wigg sfbrc wfbt wfb t ymu’vc dmoc tfbt’s omt `cco fcgpeug. Dmo’t emrhct ymu fbvc b flvc-kioutc gikit. I nomw it kby scck ikpmssi`gc tm squcczc sm kulf iotm flvc kioutcs, `ut nccp io kiod tfbt tfc flrst pbrt me tfc cxcrlisc is `ctwcco ymu bod ymur spmusc. Tfc twm me ymu occd tm gioc up bgg b gg tfc dctbigs bod kbnc b lmkpgctc, lmfcrcot stmry. Tfc sclmod pbrt is `ctwcco tfc twm me ymu bod tfc hrmup. Tfis tikc it’s b kulf `rmbdcr mvcrvicw tm hivc tfc hrmup bo idcb me wfcrc ymu brc lmkioh ermk. Eccg ercc tm usc tfc qucstimos `cgmw tm fcgp emrk ymur stmry.
I oclcssbry, usc bdditimobg pbhcs tm rclmrd ymur tfmuhfts.
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0.2< Drbw b tikc gioc emr ymur kbrribhc. kbrr ibhc. Mo tfbt gioc rclmrd tfc iolidcots bod
typcs me `ctrbybg io ymur kbrribhc= (ermk `chiooioh tm tmdby’s dbtc)
0.23 Fmw did ymu fidc wfbt ymu wcrc dmioh ermk ymur kbtc=
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Bs ymu gmmn `bln mo ymur giec bs b wfmgc, dm ymu scc b pbttcro me tfis smrt me `cfbvimr=
0.29 Xfbt wbs it ginc emr ymu fbvioh tm givc b dmu`gc giec=
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0.02 Fmw did fc mr sfc rcspmod= Fmw did ymu rcblt=
0.0< Xfm cgsc nomws, fmw did tfcy flod mut bod fmw brc tfcy rcspmodioh=
0.03 Xfbt kbdc ymu dclidc tm tbnc tfis lmursc=
Lmolgusimo Tbon ymu mr omt hivioh up bod mr kbnioh it tfrmuhf moc m tfc kmst dilugt wccns m tfc lmursc, bod moc m tfc kmst dilugt tbsns m ymur jmurocy—tcggioh tfc stmry. @mtf m ymu fbvc lmotri`utcd `y bsnioh qucstimos bod rcvcbgioh kmrc dctbigs. I bk hrbtcug mr ymur lmurbhc. Xccn < wigg wi gg hivc us tfc t fc mppmrtuoity tm cxpgmrc wfy `ctrbybg mllurs, bod bgsm fcgp us rcbgizc tfbt wc brc omt bgmoc io mur cxpcricolc. Xccn 0 | Ymur \tmry / Rucstimos
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